Raw or Death

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 21:04:32 GMT

next friday i go home till sunday! probably longer gotta get shit done for school and myself. but fucking yeah bitches

nyc bitches!

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 18:18:08 GMT

Sweet Sable

So I might be late on this, meh. Alicia Keys unbreakable came off of Sweet Sable's track.

Anywho there's alot of snow outside and I'm happy, even though I'm not playing in it. It's just nice to look at for now.

I'm hungry and I want pizza.

I miss NYC.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 15:40:42 GMT

By next month I'm getting a new journal.

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 18:37:46 GMT

dude! I'm gonna get fucked up tonight.

Superbowl.

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 02:58:22 GMT

i hate not having a job and wanting so much.
i want HUARACHE's and Terminators damn it.
By god I'm gonna get them.
I want to go to sxsw, fuck it what was i thinking, whose gonna finance that?
I dont have a job and my parents won't give me the money.
BLAH!
time to spend money that's saved.
sneakers you'll make me feel happy.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 22:28:31 GMT

My SxSW plans are seriously sucking.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 05:32:42 GMT

Heaven Sent!
surely you are.

living each day loving who you are.
living each day loving who you'll become.
living each day loving and forgetting.
living
each
day.

Voice Post

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 19:21:58 GMT

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 17:20:25 GMT

so yeah i have to get a new motherboard for my laptop, that wont be coming till tuesday. =\

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 03:16:45 GMT

life sucks!
baby rules!

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 04:59:11 GMT

I dooped my parents $550 and I feel bad about it. I bought my books on half.com and yeah that definitely was a life saver. I should have like 250 in my checking about but i got 173 cause i bought items for the house. Booo. I'm still poor, i went to claires and got more studs but from now on I will be ordering my stuff online and that most certainly will be cheaper.
Anywho I'm in kind of a rut. I haven't been feeling like myself, lately I know i've been irritable and annoying and sometimes angrily i take things out on either my brother or sister through sarcastic sometimes hurtful comments and half the time i don't even remember saying anything. So claimly today I took a jab at my brother laughed about it and i seriously forgot about it two minutes after it happened. I still have no idea as to what i said. That's not good. MEH.
I've weighed out my options and I figured i should try and work fulltime, and no not all morning shifts just so that it equal 40 hours a week. Why? Cause having a set schedule normally produces good outcomes for me. WHY? cause my body is freaking weird. Anywho with my schedule now at school I have SUN,TUES,THURS,SAT off i figured i could 7-8 hour shifts than Mon, Wed, Fri i could do five hour shifts. I need to save money and hopefully get my Envoy or Rav4 by at least Aug.
Oh yeah MSM dooped me my $250 deposit. I wasn't really depending on it but I was hoping for it. I don't get it till the Summer and they better believe i will be on their asses for that. I should be getting a hefty amount from YCP in March that probably will go towards saving for my car.
My stinking Dell Latitude D510 is being a bitch and won't charge so it's in critical battery condition right now. I have to call dell and figure that out. Luckyme I have a 4 year warranty!!! But my albums don't have any warranty sooooo booo if i have to get a new motherboard which i read in some forums i might need. At least my ass only has to pay for shipping nothing else. I still want an ipod and i'm close to getting one but what's the purpose if i need to get all my 100+ albums again? Bleh.
Thursday is going to finish my job hunt. I'm waking up early and I'm heading to the mall and such and I am once again going to go application crazy. I hope all goes well. I want a car real bad.

Tamia - Officially Missing You. I love this song.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 23:15:01 GMT

Tamia

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go

‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away

And today I’m officially missin’ you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I’ve fronted long enough to know

There ain’t no way

And today I’m officially missing you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...

All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at

all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I-I’m officially missin’ you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby

But I see there’s something I just can’t do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can’t find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...

It’s official

Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes

All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah

And I-I’m officially missin’ you

The hottest songs from Tamia

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 23:00:59 GMT

Friday morning I walked to the bus station to catch the 3b. As I walked the circular head of my labret piercing fell off. BOOOOOOOOOO! That ruined my day, I doubt my lip is going to close up but it has potential to. It's been three months since i got my lovely piercing and I want to get the other side done, but right now I'll stick to this one and possibly a nose stud! Why? cause my mom doesn't look down on a nose stud but a lip ring brings all hell.

I doubt I mentioned this but back in December I went to my aunts house a week prior to Christmas, she didn't notice my newly pierced face until the day of my brother and I leaving. She laughed sinisterly and basically went crazy. She had her tantrum and said not to talk to her and not even to come to her funeral and if she dies it was my brother and I who caused it. Why? cause of a freaking piercing. Ridiculous. I really dislike people who put themselves in a new culture and expect everyone to abide by their rules and their culture. You're in America if this piercing meant anything in Haiti surely you should go back to haiti. You're in America this little stud under my lip means nothing. It's just a way i express myself. She had the nerve to call little ole me a druggie and a pusher! HA! I'm so innocent I haven't done anything in my fucking life! And you have the nerve to say that to me. Obviously she thinks lowly of me and she thinks the worse. She doesn't know what family is. She knows nothing.

Anywho my aunt told my mom I got a piercing, I told my mom beforehand. And my mom just requested I take it out when I visited for Christmas. Ok, done. My own mother did not freak to the extent her sister did. My aunt therefore is a moron who turns things into explosive topics. When I arrived home in NY for Xmas break my dad didn't say much besides "I can't believe you did that" He still talked to me and yeah cut my christmas money in a half, i think that was a bit much but hey. Whatever, my birthday is in Feb. My aunt called the house again, and my aunt plays tricks. She talked my dad into getting mad at me. She's fucking crazy. Whatever than my mom got mad cause my dad brings her mental anguish that led to the topic of me not putting my piercing back in. OOOO BOOOWHOOOO! Fuck that I just got a retainer and they didn't notice. But the circular part of that fell off. So I am retainer-less. I have an extra stud, the original stud but it's to big for my hole. Currently I use a 16g and the first one had to be 12g or 14g, probably 14. It hurts when i put it in so i doubt I'm putting that back in. The 16g was pretty nice.

Anywho, yeah before yesterday I didn't talk to my aunt for about a month. The only reason why I am talking to her is due to my mothers request. My aunt told me not to talk to her and i followed her request happily, if you knew the things she did to my family and the things she's said you'd think that I would've done it sooner. My mother told me that my aunt was hurt by me getting pierced and that she too, my mom, was hurt. My mother also told me that my aunt was paying the interest off my loan, that means I'm required to talk to her since she's being so nice and holy to me. She also said one day she'll tell me what the piercing means in Haiti. They're not getting the point; WE'RE NOT IN HAITI! gosh. Hard-headed. My dad i think initially reacted weakly because well he's in the city all the time and piercings in NYC are everywhere.

Well seeing at though I'm poor right now and can't afford to go to Claire's to get a $14.00 stud they might get their way and my piercing may close. Lucky bastards. But that's a might.

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 20:27:00 GMT

Me: How do you grow a penis?
Kelly: Easy just add water.

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 05:15:59 GMT

REASON WHY I HATE THIS HOUSE!

I LEFT MY SYALLABI IN MY BOOKBAG WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY NOW?

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 04:57:25 GMT

my frsem class transferred! that means i'm taking eng200
yeah bizznatches. I think god is helping me this year.

update later.

Schedule

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 01:55:49 GMT

Human Communication M W F 800-850am
Infomatn Literacy M W 900-950am
Hist Western Civ II M W F 1100-1150am
Inter Fren I M W F 1200-1250pm
English Comp M W F 100-150pm
Into To Art Apprec M W F 200-250pm

17 credits in all whoopey.
Tomro is day 1 of classes.
YAY!

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 19:10:08 GMT

So yeah i got into YCP! Whoooopey!

Voice Post

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 06:06:45 GMT

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 05:38:50 GMT

I miss him and it's hurting me.

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 06:18:28 GMT

hopefully within a week or so i can finalize my plans to go to sxsw.
i know this is gonna cost about a G or more. $530.85 right now for a hotel and plane deal, maybe more in a week if i don't get the money than i'd say 120 for a ticket to said event. I round up on everything.. Then there's hand money which surely will be alot cause i spend to much soo it's probably gonna be $1000-1500. or i'm just being super haitian and rounding up to the extreme... And the hotel needs someone at least 21 to check in? i'm wondering if i could put my brothers name and get in?
Bah.
This is the only remote thing making me happy. Hopefully i can save half of my book money and order through half.com or something. And i'm still in need of a job, not using plastic is gonna suck..

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 05:36:56 GMT

i miss Regine my NYU hoe!

plus dear god let me get accepted to YCP.
I hate the mount

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 23:59:07 GMT

these niggas trying to keep me!

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 05:34:53 GMT

These are the specs of my room. It's the attic. I feel as though sometimes I don't belong in this house cause my room is upstairs and it's not even done. I end up going to bed at 3am or later cause my brother leaves to go to work at that time. And I take his bed. I have a bed, it's in my sister's room. But that's her room. Most of the time now I sleep on the floor with my body pillow in my brothers room. His room is where i feel most comfortable. I don't want to go back to Mount St. Mary's I've yet to pay the next semester, i got a loan with my aunt that i my mother is holding. She put it in her bank account and now for some reason they're investigating her? That's fucking retarded it's my mother, she's holding my money and i don't want to go back to the Mount, I'm seeing if possible i can either go to YCP or maybe a community college cause the Mount is not where's it's at. I'm not happy there not one bit, it made me depressed, but if i go back, I'll work my ass off and keep to myself. The money i get will go here, for the house pot and pay off some bills cause I can't just sit on my ass and let my brother pay for everything! That's retarded and unfair, he has his freaking bachelor's in finance and shouldn't be working at FEdEX, screw it man. Screw it.

One thing I'm looking forward to is fixing that room up. I'm hopefully going to make it either Asian or African themed. Just to be different.

Stages of Ugly

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 05:33:09 GMT

These are all pretty much the same pictures

The last one looks like i got beat up, nope that's just two hours worth of crying......me right now.
cried all day.

I love you and i hate myself for it, I hope one day I can forget you.